:/

about fifteen minutes ago i awoke (from nightmares, nonetheless)to the sound of the phone ringing and my voicemail recording a message notifying me that I had missed an appointment at 7:00.

Damn. That was an important appointment.

It’s not so much that that is bothering me. It’s the face that ever since opening my eyes, I have been in a completely different mood than i was when i passed out in my work clothes after a thirteen hour day. I fell asleep just tired, and satisfied with the huge amount of work I did over the course of the day. I felt today as if I was really earning my paycheck… spending every second working constructively in my classroom or tracking people down with various Brilliant Ideas. I had tons of energy and came across as very positive all day.

but apparently something happened in my head while i was sleeping, because now i am cranky as hell.

i am doing better now than I was two weeks ago, or even last weekend. I think I only cried once yesterday, and it was for like 10 seconds. Today I haven’t at all… but i definitely have  a big dark ugly cloud over my head that suddenly appeared while i was sleeping.

I just had 9,000 thoughts at the same time as to what to type in this sentence. Each opf them would have been a fantastic direction to pursue… but i just can’t type anymore. I mean literally. As in my fingers forget where the keys are… I keep having to delete like crazy because I am doing it wrong.

My grain in sne menlting…..

yeah stt that’s what happens when i don’t fincx my typeos. I think my brain is actually so overstimulated that it foregets how to do sinmpele t hthings/

back to bed, i think.