I should not be writing. I have a massive headache that has been trying to start all day, and has finally emerged into the throbbing in the back of my head, stabbing behind my left eye, stiff neck, tender scalp, alternating ears are ringing, nauseous and on the verge of crying all at the same time stage. I should be popping Relpax and sleeping. Exercise and meditation put it off for a while this morning. Advil almost seemed like it was helping this afternoon. But no. it is not going to go away until it turns me into a mess.
I hate hate hate this kind of headache. I can’t even look at the screen while I type, and the electronic nooine emitted by the monitor feels like a jugsaw going through my head.
I am supposed to keep track of what triggers these things. I think this time it is stress. I am a pretty low-stress girl usually, but the last few weeks have brought news of an impending strike at work, among other things:
the possibility of getting a new job in a different district that may or may not be a better environment for me,
the issue of not knowing where I can/should relocate to this summer (or if it would even be a financially smart decision to do so at all), and with that realizing that while I am getting closer to it, I will probably not attain my ideal living situation in my next lease cycle…
going through the interviewing process for the National Writing Project (I got in!!!)
trying to help my sister deal with some serious stress in her life,
having a serious hay fever issue (likely brought on by the SHITTY weather we have been having)
again, dealing with the mortality of my aging parents
having dozens of demands from dozens of directions…
Or maybe it is jsut sleep depravation. Usually i get a migraine if I have not slept well or enough for several days… I have been pretty good about that lately, but last night I ws achy all over and missed CJ and couldn’ fall assleep… and my alarm went off at 4:30 AM so I got up and started my day.
Or maybe it was sun. I couldn’t find my sunglasses today so had to drive home squinting. Usually ten minutes of that is enough to guarantee a migraine later. DAmn. Maybe it was a combination/
I don’t thingk it matters at this point how i got this headache. I just need to go to bed.
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